hooray! o's are finally over! ((:
(actually its been over two weeks since it ended, haha)

it's really been a really really stressful and tumultuous year and i spent everyday struggling with pulling my failing grades up(someone needs to give me a good progress award), training for competitions(and we got a gold with honours, hooraaayy!), escaping from classes cos i find them useless and end up getting scolded by family and teachers (oops)... its really been a long year. phew. and now when i look back, im damn proud of myself that im still alive. <:

after the exams, i finally had time to think and reflect. i talked to my friends alot and i found out many many things. during the days when i was having my own "mid-life crisis" and was oblivious to many things around me and was probably having depression as well, i learnt that i had friends who cared about me. abit too late now, since school has already ended and i most probably wont see them again. i was heartened and i couldnt stop smiling and tearing that day. and i realised what a horrible person i was. so selfish that i shut myself from the rest of the world, so oblivious that i never knew my friend was suffering as well, and that i was so horrid to think that i was the most pitiful person in the whole wide world.
im glad i woke up. im glad i still had the conscious to quit thinking of just about myself, and im glad, real glad that i had friends who still stood by my uhh, empty shell and helped me along. i was really gonna give up yknow, but i knew i shouldnt, because i would be betraying you guys. (:

haha, most people and friends at dA will most probably go huh at whatever im ranting here, but you guys too should understand this feeling, the power of friendship, as cliche as it may sound.

anyway, my friends, today is our grad night and even though im not around for you guys to laugh at my prom dress and etc. i hope you guys have fun and enjoy this one-and-only hollywood glam night!! i love all of you! <3

also, happy holidays to everyone on dA! you guys helped me survive thru my mid-life crisis too!

with this, i will go on a hiatus from my personal account at dA.
to freshen up, to develop a better drawing style and come back with better art in a brand new account! see ya!